When I didn’t have kids yet, I remember thinking that moms are superheroes. That they have some superpowers that other people don’t have. I always admired and was fascinated by the fact of how moms always find solutions for everything. They make tools for something if they don’t have them, they fix things, they find new ways to do things. Moms are so creative. I remember thinking that one day I want to be like that too when I am a mom.
But I didn’t know that all that doesn’t happen easily or when you have the baby then you are like that. Like other things in this life, having “the mom superpower” you have to learn to get it. And that lesson is very challenging and long but I already feel that I have that superpower in me after three years being a mom.
My jorney to this “superhero” path has been exciting and interesting. Before having kids I thought that nothing will change in my life. I will travel as much as I want, work out as much as I want, eat whatever, have the same friends and our home is safe as it is for the baby and later for the toddler. Well, it turned out again that I was wrong. And I don’t like that feeling when I’m wrong 😄!
When our first daughter was born, my life changed permanently, immediately. There was no going back to that “wild and free” -life. From tuhat moment on I had a new role in my life, I was a mom and no one could not take it from me. The baby wanted everything, she wanted everything from me. She took away my innocent lifestyle and I had to think again who I am. I had to build my identity again.
The first months in my new role were scary and the only thing I could think was “how can I be me again?” I love the baby and I wanted it but I feel I’m lost! I didn’t feel good in my skin and not only my body had changed but everything in me had changed too. The transformation had begun. To be a superhero.
When I had a challenging time with my firstborn I always thought how bad mom I am when I don’t even know what my baby wants. I can’t make her happy and she makes me angry. All those emotions that I didn’t know exciting came out and I cried. Boy, I cried a lot along with the baby. But eventually, the baby stopped crying and I realized I did something right. I felt so good when I realized that I had learned some tricks on how to make my baby happy.
When my firstborn turned to be a toddler (how did that happen?!), I realized that I need to start raising her too. It was scary because I just learned to take care of the baby and now she was a little human being who needed guidance and boundaries. I was lost again. I read all the books about toddlers and asked for advice from professionals and I learned what I needed to. And my superpowers were growing.
I remember the first time I realized that I’m a superhero too. My toddler was acting out and I changed my attitude and she calmed down. I noticed that I did something right! When we tried sleep training her (and it took forever) and we succeeded with that, I felt that I had some more powers.
I always thought that when you become a mom, the baby gives you the superpowers and you change. But now I know that our kids give us the superpowers we need little by little.
I can tell you a secret. There are times when I’m feeling that life would be so much easier and more fun without kids. I could travel wherever I want and have any kind of jobs I want but then I realize that I would have a big empty hole in my heart. I know I would always miss out on something if I didn’t have kids.
After over three years of being a mom, I can say that I love the change in me. The growth in me. I love to be a mom and having superpowers. I have so many other things in my life than my selfish thoughts. I love that I can do things with my kids and I love to teach them when I see that they are learning. I love to see them grow and I wouldn’t change anything. All the struggles I’ve been through with them have been worth everything. My kids gave me the superpowers and I love being a superhero! And moms are always right about everything, right? 😄
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